The fragmented thoughts and images inside my brain.

The Darkness Prevails

2011-11-03T22:03:00.000-07:00

The darkness spreads. It covers the eyes. Vision is not clear.
Choices are made. There's no turning back.
You've done what you've done and you can't take it back.
The darkness prevails. It carries you off.
Memories are all that are left.

Red Tears

2011-07-19T01:38:00.000-07:00

Whoa is me, hear the rushing sea, the mist flirts with my eyes
My heart it thumps, and bumps, and jumps, it throws me to the ground

I know not what, or why, or who, just get me there alive
With all my might I try and try, just trying to survive

My heart it beats, and weeps with blood, the tears streak thru my veins
For all I know, thus little bit, for when it goes, I'm gone

The Hunt

2011-06-18T12:48:00.000-07:00

Good times are all that I seek. Maybe even just a little peek.
Sometimes it starts, lovely and nice. usually turns into some kinda Vice.

Why so elusive is my mind right in front. I'll often get mad and call me a cunt.
It's right there, right in front. The Ego won't let it, it seeks out the Hunt.

Can't describe how I feel. I'm sure it's not real.
Floating along on a river of thoughts. Once in a while I might go'n get caught

Jake, my good friend, always around. A life long companion he comes from the ground.
Gotta let go of the judges and sounds, but they just keep spinning around and around

So is the struggle for me in my mind. Sometimes it's fun, sometimes a grind
The trick's lettin' go, enjoyin' the show. Let it all happen, just go with the flow.

Eventually you burn

2011-06-12T21:28:00.000-07:00

Shame is a thing, up close and real, its breath hot & stinky like mine
Shame is a Fear that leads to Rage and black-n-blue bouts of living

Shame gets me Drunk, Stoned, & Wired. The Lows do not equal the Highs.
Shame for what I've done, for what I didn't do, or thought.
It hollows the spot where the soul it doth lie.

A drop of Shame it poisons the soul, and the next thousand souls in a line.
Shame it burns white, hot bright, must take flight, consuming it all & the mind
No one survives...eventually you burn

No discernible course

2011-06-10T00:40:00.000-07:00

Oh the frustration of doing what I should not.
The pain, fatigue, won't ever stop

Awake. Should be sleeping. Late.
Drifting, floating in my mind with no discernible course

Three hours down, my time for bed
Again put off the sleep that I need
Tomorrows price, draggin' ass to the j-o-b
It's a rythmn. It's my rythmn...
For now

catalyst of collision

2011-06-10T00:30:00.000-07:00

Music is a spirit in my blood
It courses thru my veins and keeps me awake

It pumps me up and I've broken things
Dancing wildly in small rooms
Holes in walls, broken lamps
Pin Ball machines with holes

Music is the elixir, the catalyst of collision
The morning comes, me black and blue
Music carries me on

FEARS

2011-05-03T22:32:00.000-07:00

Standing at the precipice of failure or success

Darkness looms ahead

Can't force or manipulate to make what I want

Is that a light I see there in the dark?

The stress it burns hot, erases some years

Keeps me alert, open, all ears

Re-visit the topic. Soon we shall see

If the light in the darkness was something at all, or just wishful thinking

Alone in the dark.

No Game At All

2011-04-30T00:22:00.001-07:00

Divine you exclaim. Naive the mind groans.
Fumble and bobble. Stare into...blank.

You want it to be so badly. How can it be so?
Yet you ponder how it fails. A residual like snails.

The bark on the trees. The shapes and forms.
Rattle the brain. Seize the mind.

Blink open the eyes and choke back those tears.
Strong is the game. Tho it's No Game At All.

Well...that's one way to look at it.

2011-04-30T00:22:00.000-07:00

Misty eyed brain Love in the Heart
Wonder and turn and twist all about
Many inside me no dare to come out
You see them all if you languish about
Ruff trade my lads Broken and pained
Pipes squeal away at the quiet malaise

Regrets

2011-04-01T11:23:00.000-07:00

Abandon all regrets, it poisons the soul

Awaken the mind, the darkness dissipates

The taste in your mouth is the taste of your soul

Right Vs. Wrong, your Heart knows the Truth

Your choices are plenty, but few mean so much

Life on Lifes terms, or struggle along

Futile!

useless malaise

2011-02-03T10:52:00.000-08:00

I want what I want, and it pains not to have

Change my perspective, it's not how I feel

Know in my heart, it all goes away

Then wanting becomes a useless malaise.

Forgetful Me

2011-02-03T10:48:00.000-08:00

Sunshine so bright
Lost in my mind
Forget the beauty that surrounds me sometimes

Take in a breath
Let it roll out
Breath is the life I often forget about
Focus!

Someone's Life

2011-01-22T09:47:00.000-08:00

I sit in a room, fifty years in the making. Someones life, just not mine.

No Music?

2011-01-21T22:56:00.000-08:00

I feel the music. It feels so good. It sets me free. Happy to be.
What will I do with no music to hear.
Will I keep my ear?
It's all a jumble. Not sure which way to go. The final ride? No way to go.
What's your story, I often ask. I do not know which way I go.
And this troubles me I s'pose.

Floating by

2011-01-21T22:52:00.000-08:00

So lonely are the nights. Daze not much better.
I feel like I'm floating. Worried about the crash
It'll only hurt for a moment. Then what?
Who really knows.

These Times...

2010-07-22T15:39:00.000-07:00

The neighborhood is home 2 many souls/ who wander & flit about

Sum smell of gin, sum smell of juice, while others of desperation

Waiting For The End

2010-07-22T15:38:00.000-07:00

It waits & waits/ until its time/ No sooner will it come

So run along & play some more/ for soon you'll play no more.

Tic Tic

2010-07-22T15:36:00.001-07:00

Friends've soften'd with age/ swear they're the same/ tho see it in their eyes/

no "Sweet-Leaf" for them/ Tesh is the soundtrack now

The Hard Cold Truth

2010-07-22T15:35:00.000-07:00

Beauty & ugly walk hand in hand/

comforting each others doubts

Asphyxia

2010-07-22T15:33:00.001-07:00

Exploit! We must/ it's what we do

Get what we can/ no matter how do

But soon enuff/ we'll take 2 much

The cost/ will turn us blue.

The Bus Around Town

2010-07-22T15:32:00.000-07:00

Familiar places/ new presentations/ the window shows it all

Memories go past alone/ laughing here/ crying there/ it all hits close to home.

Ch ch ch changes

2010-07-22T15:30:00.000-07:00

Discarded changes/ left 'long side the road

Wither & dry/under a parching sun

No attention to drink from/ just shadows of the past

This Way & That

2010-07-19T16:18:00.000-07:00

My future gleams with unlimited potential/shiny & bright it waits

This way & that the wind blows/I only hope I'm not late

PATH

2010-07-19T16:16:00.000-07:00

The Path we're on/We choose how to act

How we act/Will choose the PATHPath we're on

Such is the way we travel along

A simmering Pot

2010-07-19T15:41:00.000-07:00

My feelins fer you/change everyday

They bubble & boil/my souls life away

By the seat of his pants

2010-07-19T15:39:00.000-07:00

WTF do I know/a silly man you see.

Flying on a high-wire/for all to laugh...tee hee

"I callz em az I seez em"/that's all he really knows

Living in a world he built/no futher than his nose

THINKIN'

2010-07-19T15:33:00.000-07:00

Thinkin bout the future/& "how things gonna be".

Thinkin bout the future/& what's the role for me.

Thinkin bout the future/got no control you see.

Thinkin I outta stop thinkin/just let it all be.

See

2010-07-14T16:31:00.000-07:00

My vision once gone, has returned thank you God

I'm catching up reading; my thoughts are a whirl

Grateful to see; I pray to move on

Lift myself out of this depression, so long

I wonder what's next; but don't hold my breath

I need to move forward or stay stuck all along.

Home...for now

2010-07-14T16:19:00.000-07:00

I live in a ghetto sultry and dark

Gunfire burps from outta of the North

"Hola" I say or "what-up", it depends

I know my way round but still feel so penned

The houses are neat; the apartments are not

Cockroaches feed on the slithering snot

Carnitas smell good, I love em ya know

My neighbors work hard to stay in the glow

The colors all blur; humanities blend

Don't fuck with me and we'll all get along

HOT

2010-07-14T16:16:00.000-07:00

The weather's hot but not to wet

It really won't leave me upset

Some folks will moan and find complaints

They need to practice more restraint

The hills now brown and dried like dust

Are really no different than the rest of us

Sing your Song

2010-07-14T16:12:00.001-07:00

Tick toc the time goes by

Sing your song and then you'll die

Time goes on...and on and on

Flitter and flit into a fit...or relax and join in all the fun

Survive Alive

2010-05-22T16:28:00.000-07:00

The past year has been the most difficult to survive

I wonder if I am still alive

Time goes on, with or with out me.

Stand in the way and you'll feel the wrath

The end Result

2010-05-22T16:25:00.000-07:00

Times are tuff and so are my feelings

The shivers of time run down my back

The snow melts & the birds sing and life goes by like it's got no wings

Plunging faster to the expected end.

brrrrr

2009-12-11T18:53:00.000-08:00

tired and sleepy the sun slowly sets
Purple in color as the sky seems to get

stop and chillax and rest the weary soul
breathe deep and slow before you go into the hole

measured and sure exact and precise
life will go onward well after you're ice

The King

2009-12-07T20:20:00.000-08:00

the ugly lay next to the king
he keeps them there to kiss his ring

but the plot and knive and try to move ahead
Soon the king will be dead but the killers will become king

no way before

2009-12-07T20:16:00.000-08:00

while you were sleeping the heavens fell
I felt the swell in my garden of hearts

We danced till we were carried way over the moon
Never did we see such a way before

while you were sleeping the time changed
I found you dreaming in black and white
the colors came later as we slipped under the sea.

ear to ear

2009-12-07T09:16:00.000-08:00

away we go on a tangent or two
sometimes it seems like a really bad flu

we weave and we bob and we make like a friend
smiling aloud till deaths dues the end

it never grows as we planted the seeds
all tangled and rough and growing with weeds

we stumble aloud living in fear
grinning aloud from ear to ear

A tie

2009-11-29T23:14:00.000-08:00

No work for months is killin' me now. It's not how it's s'posed to be.

33 years of work and then stop. Can cause you to bumpa your little sweet top.

Dryness of the mouth can come from straw, but you better hope it's a draw.

Progress

2009-11-29T22:57:00.000-08:00

The broken glass grinds into their flesh as the vehicles of progress slowly drive over them.

Whilst the bean counters dance and the pencil fucks growl, all the poor folk can do is hide and howl.

When it's the end

2009-02-11T15:43:00.000-08:00

When it's the end will I know it or not
Will it say hi or hello or ignore me a lot

When it's the end can I take but a moment
To gather my things, my thoughts, and what not

When it's the end will it get dark or real bright
I hope I don't have to go down with a fight.

Will it hurt in the end or will it come quiet
A smile on the face or a grimace to go

I wonder a loud if I'll see it come forth
I wonder a loud if I'll know what it is

Whiter away

2009-02-11T15:36:00.000-08:00

Wisps o fresh air circulate round my eyes, for I feel them & their lies
I know not what, but whom, and where
I ask aloud and feel the air my breath creates
It swirls and whirls and flitters about tickling the hairs in my ears and snout

The sound it comes out and withers away
My neighbor heard me only yesterday

Somewhere

2009-02-09T15:36:00.000-08:00

Somewhere in my mind is the reason for the illness.
Somewhere in my soul is the reason for the darkness.
Somewhere in this world is the son of a bitch who put the dark illness in my mind

2009-02-09T15:35:00.000-08:00

Wa wa wa wa wa wawawa.
Wa wa wa

Wa wa wawawa wa wa.
Wa wa wa wa.
Wa!

Here today...

2009-01-07T13:40:00.000-08:00

Life is here and life is there and then it's gone
Fleeting are the moments of joy, of pain, of the happy times, of the sad times

Moments come & moments go
Washing up like the grains of sand they are

The Road Less Travled, now there's a funny thought
It is not smooth. It is not easy. It is not

A motor revs, a woman speaks, a bird pauses before flight
In that instant it's all gone.
Everything you have and everything you're gonna have

The Cross In The Road

2009-01-02T12:16:00.000-08:00

Friends are for life you can't set them down
They'll always be there to help with a frown

They push and they pull cause they love you ya know
and want wants the best for you & the crown

Even when gone, the memories are there
The tears on the cheek remember it all

Remember me boys, be loud & be proud, for one day we'll meet at that cross in the the road.

The end?

2008-12-30T15:31:00.000-08:00

I usually get lost when my thougts come-a callin
Don't know why but they hurt my head
I believe in an after life but sometimes I can't wait for the after part
I just wanna skip it all and go to the end. Is there an end?

Nature

2008-12-30T15:29:00.000-08:00

Time for things to go. It's normal you know
Time for things to come. It's normal you know

Time for things to change. It's normal you know
Time for things to stay the same. It's not normal you know

Storms and Flutters

2008-12-11T16:03:00.000-08:00

When I stop to fast, my mind blows past
It swirls and storms and flutters on by
I never know which way it goes.
I never know which way to go

It's harried and hurried and fills up with smoke
I never really knew it wasn't a joke

LIES

2008-12-10T15:57:00.000-08:00

I wanna throw a tantrum, I want it done my way
I know that you're just lying to see what I might do
To play this game is dangerous some say yea deadly too
Will I go and sleep the night or find someone to shoo
I cannot say which way I'll go or what will come of it
I cannot tell a lie you know for it will tell on me

Pictures in my mind

2008-12-10T15:37:00.000-08:00

My pictures fade & pulse sometimes I even feel them torn
Do you to also see this way or is my path unworn
It cannot be it cannot see for it has lost it's eyes
and now it's time to lay asleep and twinkle at the stars

Hazy Daze

2008-12-10T15:30:00.000-08:00

On my way I stopped to think and felt a little twinge
It made me wonder where I'd been so I stopped to smoke a while
I saw some red and purple too and fell into a hole
It seemed so black and dark it scared me some a little
So when I see a big galoot I wonder it aloud
My time is near and so is yours to fall on down to mars

2008-12-03T12:59:00.000-08:00

I heard on the radio today that there are to many trees in some US forests. Isn't that an egocentric perspective?

Or not...

2008-12-02T07:03:00.000-08:00

The day is dawning, it's a brand new day.
Another day to face it all. The good the bad & the very ugly

Take it all. Appreciate it! Taste it, feel it. All of it
Make the choice to roll with it. Or not...

Way to go

2008-11-19T16:08:00.000-08:00

Blue skies and white clouds roll down my mind
Waiting for the water to cool, it wanders off

Hot flashes, cold cashes, Oatmeal runs deep
Icy veins are the way, 'nother daze comes to

White heat, black chill, remains of the day
Disturbing images come all at once, you wanted it all your way

Run, walk, glide along
Don't get bit by the holy slip

WANKER!

2008-11-17T14:47:00.000-08:00

My boss is a dick
His name aint Richard

He controls as he can
Don't know any better I s'pose

Frustrating effect
Kinda pushes one away

Not sure if it's for real or just a power trip
I guess I'll never know

Why mess with things that need no fixin'
Just so one can leave their finger prints on something.
A legacy so to speak?

I'm not impresed
But nor surprised either

Caution: wankers abound!

"It must've been those pills that I took"

2008-11-14T15:06:00.000-08:00

I've been to confession,
I've been to counseling,
and I still can't forgive myself...

"I've lied and I've stole and that ain't no fuckin joke..."

Funny that way

2008-11-11T15:09:00.000-08:00

Don't follow me I'm lost as hell
Twitching & turning I'll fight my way thru

The music make me shudder & shake
Takes control of my life, can't help myself

Don't know why it's so
Just that way I s'pose

It's not about good
It's not about bad

Life's just funny that way.

The Box

2008-11-06T15:30:00.001-08:00

The box I built is just for me
There's room for one, so don't make me squeeze

It fits me so tight and cuts off the blood
Hot pain fills me up, I drown in my suds

I carry it with me, where ever I go
I built it for me, can't you see it's a round

It holds all my crap, my precious issues
I carry it with me, now matter how heavy

It's mine and I built it
For me and mine 'lone

It won't shade the sun or keep the wet out
But it sure holds my pain and most of my doubts

My time

2008-11-06T15:23:00.000-08:00

When I look in your eyes. I feel so scared
You don't remeber the things that transpired

It pains me so, and angers me too
You so beautiful, I can't feel your pain
Who would do this to you

I wonder if as a child you ever suspected you'd be where your at
I never did, don't understand

My time is mine, experienced by one alone
Your time is you, felt by you alone

Git along git along...

2008-11-06T14:55:00.001-08:00

Ooops! I slipped and fell
Good thing I did't hurt myself

Tripping again, I can't find my way
40 something years old, and I feel very lost

If you stop for to long to gather your wits
They prod you along, move at their pace

Trample you down, don't move fast enough
Face down again, such a familiar place

Wait, I know what I need...
Ooops! I slipped and fell...again

Huh?

2008-11-05T16:45:00.000-08:00

W - T - F ?

OMG...

2008-11-05T16:43:00.000-08:00

...it's so bright

...it's so loud

...there so BIG

...it's so small (giggle)

...I love this

...I hate this

...why

FRIENDS

2008-11-05T16:37:00.000-08:00

My friends are mine
I don't want to share

But I know they are good friends
So I will share

My friends care for me, they keep me warm
My friends and I don't always see eye to eye
But the memories we build

Friends stay around
Friends speak their mind
Together we will build

Speak the truth, you may only get one chance
Seek the out and spend the time

Friends are around for a very short time

What'da want for nothing?

2008-11-05T16:30:00.000-08:00

I can't believe its all changed
Nobody asked me

Where did they go, Why can't I go to
It's all a blur, images howling in the wind

Another time, I'll make the cut
This time I stay, all alone at home

Dreaming 'bout my life
Can't believe the time is near

The leaves go red, my body goes black
My brain still churns, butter oozes from my ears

I'll wait for my turn, Just don't leave without me
I'll pull my weight, and make the grade

The rabbits foot worn out
My luck is going down

Another Time...

2008-11-05T16:27:00.000-08:00

My baby's fucked up
Don't know when she's gonna die

She's on her last leg
Not long for this world

Feel the stages
See them fall in line

MUSIC

2008-11-05T16:24:00.000-08:00

Makes me tingle
Makes me numb

Makes me happy
Makes me sad

Makes me sorry
Makes me grateful

Makes me angry
Makes me mad

Makes me feel
Makes me think

Makes me dumb
Makes me sharp

Makes me wired
makes me tired

WHATEVER...

2008-11-05T14:33:00.000-08:00

I BE ME AND YOU BE YOU
YOU GO YOUR WAY I GO MINE

SOMETIMES WE MEET SOMETIMES WE DON'T
SOMETIMES WE'RE NEAR AND SOMETIMES WE'RE FAR

WE GET HIGH WE GET LOW
WE GET HOT WE GET COLD

IT IS THE WAY
WE ARE LOST

WHATEVER IT IS ENJOY
FOCUS ON IT ALL

Even after we are gone

2008-11-05T12:25:00.000-08:00

The plain gain is the same
Nervous and wiggley

Jumping around looking about
The frog eyes the Tiger with envy

Ready of not
It just keeps coming

New times in store
A moment coming soon

Red is not blue
Blue is not red

Clouds roll by
Day turns to night

Even after we are gone

Four years from now

2008-11-05T09:05:00.000-08:00

We shall see how the banners wave
It won't take that long

The fighting churns on
Disagreement abounds

Hope is the key
Fear drives the train

Don't hold your breath
To many disagree, in-fighting it breeds

Change is a coming
It is inevitable

Bend. Sway. Vibrations of life
Don't let it break you down

Don't forget...

2008-11-04T16:07:00.000-08:00

Remember those times when...
We laughed so hard...

Remember those time when...
We cried so long...

Remember those times when...
We felt the end was near...

Remember those times when...
We burned so hot...

Remember those time when...
We burst with joy...

Remember...

Happy Times - oh happy times.

2008-11-04T16:00:00.000-08:00

Thoughts of my childhood pass thru my mind
Loving memories that make me feel warm

Saddness follows as my shortcomings are there too
Why does a good thought always turn bad

I love my memories. Sometimes they seem to be all that I have
Memories of you, Memories of me

I've said it before and I'll say it again
This is not how I thought things would be

To & fro move the emotional ball
The pedulum of time and all that it carries with it

Hectic Days

2008-11-03T13:17:00.001-08:00

Hectic days help us forget
The pain in which we sit

Like nodding off, The haze is thick

Hand to hand with the ZZZ monster
It is futile to resist

It all piles up, stay on top
Sliding down to frustration

I guess it's better than castration.

The Upside Down Smiles

2008-10-31T13:54:00.000-07:00

Down turned the markets
Crashes all the way.

Down turned the comforts we had saved
Profit records for some, desperation for others

Rightside up is not for you
You're not with us, we'll stay the course...for our profits of course.

Good for me - Good for you

2008-10-31T13:48:00.000-07:00

Is what's good for me, good for you?
Is what's good for you, Good for me?

Is that not the problem?
You want what you want
I want what I want
What's your problem?

Can we realize our common threads, Wrap ourselves with them?
Go to sleep warm at night, Fully grasp our lives

Is what you want good for us?
Is what we want good for you?

What will history show?

2008-10-31T13:27:00.001-07:00

Birth

Eat

Sleep

Work

Death

Spicey-Spicey

2008-10-31T13:20:00.000-07:00

Nachos taste good. tingle the tounge
Not so good for the heart, it spreads the sun

Nachos with cheese, the navel spreads
The belly sags, the belt needs new threads

Mexican food, it is da' bomb
Spicy heat-RATM, mixes out more deep

Nothing like some jalepeno for grey skies

2008-10-29T14:15:00.000-07:00

I've been kinda sick lately, but I'm baaaack!

2008-10-28T10:23:00.000-07:00

Disillusioned by the sweet illusion
Dissapointed by those that are annointed

What is the direction you'll go
Don't ask me, I just don't know

What do you want
A moment in time, tick tock tick tock

It is faster than you think, and soon it will rush past you
and you standing there looking at your feet.

Huge Profits

2008-10-17T12:02:00.000-07:00

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You just can't fix stupid

2008-10-17T09:24:00.000-07:00

Around 1997 while standing in line at the Customer Service counter at a Target store in Riverside, California

I noticed an 18 or 19 year old blonde female staring at a map of the US on the screen of a computerized Bridal Shower Kiosk for several minitues.

You are supposed to touch the screen on the appropriate US State where the "registered bride" lives to start the process.

As the line moved forward I soon found my self standing right next to this girl, who looked up at me and asked me in a quiet voice, "which ones California".

I heard a few muffled groans as I quietly pointed out California on the map for her. The line moved on, my turn at the counter came up soon, and I never saw that woman again.

Joe Plumber vs. Joe Blow

2008-10-16T14:15:00.001-07:00

I aint no plumber and my name isn't Joe.

Plumbers make bucks, unclogging your shit

They're all out of touch, just say what you want

No reality to speak, no sorrow or woe

Fight over a symbol, they don't understand

To take what the want, from outta your hand

Joe the Plumber, I can't ID

Poor, broke, and numb, that's for me

Lost Cause

2008-10-16T11:39:00.000-07:00

Your sorry eyes; they cut through bone
They make it hard to leave you alone
Leave you here wearing your wounds
Waving your guns at somebody new

Baby you're lost
Baby you're lost
Baby you're a lost cause

There's too many people you used to know
They see you coming they see you go
They know your secrets and you know theirs
This town is crazy; nobody cares

Baby you're lost
Baby you're lost
Baby you're a lost cause

I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of fighting
Fighting for a lost cause

There's a place where you are going
You ain't never been before
No one left to watch your back now
No one standing at your door
That's what you thought love was for

Baby you're lost
Baby you're lost
Baby you're a lost cause

I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of fighting
Fighting for a lost cause

By: Beck

Where I'm supposed to be...

2008-10-16T09:40:00.000-07:00

There once was a kid down by the River-side
Tragedy occurred and anger ensued, an unwitting victim of sickness so dark
Anesthetize with drink, with drugs to abuse, trying to feel none

Trippin' along sunset avenue, Hold up that wall so it won't fall down
Our partners-in-crime are gone now, they're not coming back
27-years fly by, Penny Perch you're still on my mind, Lots of friends are left behind -the final members of Death Patrol...Rene Gade the singer Queen so loud, Drew Blood the poet so bold, and Donnie Rose so many hidden thorns

Getting Squeezed in reefer-side, that Gang of 4 hangin' round Raincross windows falling down with de-evolution, on the prowl for the Test Pattern

Stanard Q's Voodoo Wall in the Barn, tearing the mystic knights with boxcutter pop covered in neonflames

OKI Dogs, loved the freaky food, coverd up the gas at the Masque, I loved the sound of breaking glass, memories of mommy's Ford fly past

Disjointed DK images, Siouxsie Sioux a blur
X marked the spot for a riotous time, those Little Irish Fingers so Stiff loud and strong, Black Flag Kills Ants On Contact, White Flag never surrenders

Was I lost then or am I lost now, time changes all and nothing can change that

Where am I now? Where I'm supposed to be...

Maybe it's not for me to say?
Maybe it's all a cheap trick...

Bailout

2008-10-15T11:54:00.000-07:00

Bailout the tax payers the politicians cry

Me thinks it's the coporate cofers that want it all

The politicias ask, how much can we take?

As much as you need say the rulers of power

Money for some or money for none
A difficult choice for some

Try to watch them if you can

The hand is quicker than the eye

The house of cards it cannot last

The breath of those who have not will bring it down

Individualism versus collectivism

2008-10-15T09:59:00.000-07:00

Individualism, alone
Group, together

Individualism, I
Group, us

Individualism, selfish
Group, selfless

Individualism, American
Group, un-American

Individualism, stereotypes
Group, stereotypes

It takes a lot of individuals to make a village

A crisis in the trillions

2008-10-15T09:40:00.000-07:00

A crisis in the trillions, effects billions
Companies shake, people shudder

A crisis in the trillions, effects billions
What will milk cost today

A crisis in the trillions, effects billions
What will gas cost today

A crisis in the trillions, effects billions
What will food cost today

A crisis in the trillions, effects billions
Companies shake, people shudder

A crisis in the trillions, effects billions
Where will I live today

A crisis in the trillions, effects billions
Where will I sleep tomorrow

A crisis in the trillions, effects billions
Where will the birds go

"Kill The Poor"

2008-10-15T07:49:00.000-07:00

Efficiency and progress is ours once more
Now that we have the Neutron bomb
It's nice and quick and clean and gets things done
Away with excess enemy
But no less value to property
No sense in war but perfect sense at home

The sun beams down on a brand new day
No more welfare tax to pay
Unsightly slums gone up in flashing light
Jobless millions whisked away
At last we have more room to play
All systems go to kill the poor tonight

Gonna
Kill kill kill kill Kill the poor: Tonight

Behold the sparkle of champagne
The crime rate's gone
Feel free again
O' life's a dream with you, Miss Lily White
Jane Fonda on the screen today
Convinced the liberals it's okay
So let's get dressed and dance away the night

While they:
Kill kill kill kill Kill the poor: Tonight

By: Dead Kennedys

Bloodstains

2008-10-15T07:37:00.000-07:00

They can make things worse for me, Sometimes I'd rather die
They can tell me lots of things, But I can't see eye to eye
I know they know the way I think, I know they always will
But someday I'm gonna change my mind, Sometimes I'd rather kill

(chorus)
Blood stains, speed kills, Fast cars, cheap thrills, Rich girls, fine wine
I've lost my sense, I've lost control, I've lost my mind

Things seem so much different now, The scene has died away
I haven't got a steady job, and I've got no place to stay
Well, it's a futuristic modern world, But things aren't what they seem
Someday you better wake up, From this stupid fantasy

(chorus)

Blood stains, speed kills, Fast cars, cheap thrills, Rich girls, fine wine
I've lost my sense, I've lost control, I've lost my mind

lyrics by: Mike P (Agent Orange)

What will you do...

2008-10-14T13:23:00.001-07:00

...when the bank comes for you with their corporate police and hired guns
to move you from your place to theirs don't hang any pictures, you won't be here that long another move is soon to come, get a job

...when you're head is below the surface so cold
the waves beating you down, how long can you hold your breath

...when the riots start with no food, no money, no energy bills ...it's all just to late

...when you're all on the street with nothing to eat your kids will all starve and so will your mom and the thief in the night is you

From London to Brisbane, Soho to Beijing, Kingston to Anniston the order is changing
No one predicted these difficult times
No one wanted to believe it could all change

Nothing stays the same forever...

A financial day of reckoning

2008-10-14T12:19:00.000-07:00

Bonds, stocks, money market accounts
Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac, huge mortgage snacks, nothing like big macs
Frozen credit markets, frozen lovers, frozen peas and frozen beef, what will you eat

Sub-prime, credit default swaps, forced liquidation
Broke, broken, cracked and cracking
crashing dismally into uncertain times

LIBOR, libation, drink your worries away
Common paper shares, shared only by those who have

Mathematical calculations, attorneys & physicists work it all out
Credit of fear, radically attacked, deflated, is driving the bus

For those who have not saved, shoulda, it does not matter
Today, right now is what it's all about
Hour by hour to feed the baby
Minute by minute to stay alive

Frequent mutilation

2008-10-14T12:17:00.000-07:00

The budgets ebb, the budgets flow
One day this, next day that
What will tomorrow bring

Individualism VS. the collective good
Precise research, weeds you out

Marketing tools, advertising tricks

Buy it up, or buy it down
Someone loses, someone wins
At what cost, the soul knows

Counties live, countries die
History rolls on, a boulder bouncing down the mountainside
Roll with it, or be smashed

Lost in translation, slight of hand
Optical illusion, manipulation
A day in the life, a life in the death

The Corner I painted myself into

2008-10-14T07:36:00.000-07:00

My skills are all busted, disjointed and frayed
What the fuck was I thinkin', just frozen and 'fraid

Don't think I'm alone, there's many like me
Don't make the right choices, confused every day
I stumble and stagger, no focus or drive

I was told as a child of where I could be
but it's just not that easy, when life, it unfolds
This way & that way, up ways and down ways, each leaves it's own mark
How much can I carry, what's expected of me
I'm haunted each morning and night before bed
I'm restless and bored and ponder the dread

I remember the ghosts of my youth

Don't think I'm alone, there's many like me
Don't make the right choices, confused every day
I stumble and stagger, no focus or drive

I'm not at where I was told I could be and I fear it's to late
I'm stuck in the corner I've painted myself

Don't think I'm alone, there's many like me
Don't make the right choices, confused every day
I stumble and stagger, no focus or drive

I'm not at where I was told I could be
I'm stuck in the corner I've painted myself

Working Class Zero

2008-10-13T07:26:00.000-07:00

Don't wanna be a working class zero
I'm afraid I'm already there
No chance for home ownership, doomed to nothing but share
No chance for home ownership, doomed to nothing but share

I've worked all my life, done nothing to save
I'll hit my 60's; with what? (who cares!)
We're all on our own, with struggle or strut
Watching the rest living fat on the glut

Don't wanna be a working class zero

I'm afraid I'm already there

No chance for home ownership, doomed to nothing but share

No chance for home ownership, doomed to nothing but share

Anger don't work, depression is numb
Every day is so different, they just want us dumb
From Wall Street to my street they're pushing us down
For profits and pleasure and get it right now
It's not how I thought it would be… It's not how I thought it would be

Don't wanna be a working class zero

I'm afraid I'm already there

No chance for home ownership, doomed to nothing but share

No chance for home ownership, doomed to nothing but share

That's all I am, and all I'll ever be, a working class zero, a hero to none
It's not how I thought it would be...when I am done
I'm afraid I'm already there

Don't wanna be a working class zero

I'm afraid I'm already there

No chance for home ownership, doomed to nothing but share

No chance for home ownership, doomed to nothing but share

My choices have sealed me there, the choices-I made
No college degree, no 401K, I'm stuck in the corner I painted myself
Don't wanna be a working class zero...I'm afraid I'm already there

Don't wanna be a working class zero

I'm afraid I'm already there

No chance for home ownership, doomed to nothing but share

Don't wanna be a working class zero
To late, I'm already there
No chance for home ownership, doomed to nothing but share
No chance for home ownership, doomed to nothing but share

To late, I'm already there...